Wednesday, July 13, 2011
Sunday, July 3, 2011
super happy today
firstly, let's talk about the sermon:
this pastor is actually a little similar to my AACCC one, except maybe the Bible passages are a bit shorter. however, we're reading through Galatians which i love and the pastor gave some background to what was going on and that little piece of information helped me understand it a ton better, even though the wording was pretty self explanatory, but not knowing the context and hearing it in laymen's terms is really different. he moved quickly to the application and God spoke to me through it. the passage was about falling away. very apt since this is something i've been thinking about for a while. and in the midst of this sermon, i heard God's voice telling me to calm down. i'd been so hyped up about not having a Christian community here like back in Ann Arbor, and being scared of falling away from Him because i lacked that accountability. and today, God told me to leave it up to Him. i think because i'm so used to DOING, that sometimes i really forget to just enjoy His presence. and since the way I came to Christ is not as conventional as others, sometimes i feel like i have not experienced this joy in full. but that's a whole other story to write about. anyways, i was once again convicted of my attitude that i always need to be doing/serving Him when in reality, God's grace is sufficient for me. this is something I've been really experiencing in these two weeks. God will cover my sins up. and He does not want to let me go. so I need to stop being so afraid, because it's hindering me from fulfilling greater purposes, when i keep hesitating or thinking/wasting time. my salvation cannot be earned, because it only comes from Jesus. and I have already accepted it. so maybe this year, God is asking me to sit back and watch Him. ironically, without my close knit community, i'm still feeling tied together with God and i've been remembering to do my devos which is not always the case when i'm in community. so God is good. all the time.
i was reminded of one thing today tho. i want to commit my life everyday to Christ. like the pastor said, it's not a one time commitment and i think in order to orient my mind to the correct thinking, i want to surrender myself to Him everyday. things are not in my control and i may not be always pleased with it. i may even be confused. but I want to live like Christ and be a light to the world.
so i'm happy because God spoke to my direct fears today and dispelled them. i need to be careful now that i don't go too lax. but He's giving me strength. i'm starting to recognize the roads a bit and that's such a praise to God too considering my limited driving skills. He's really protected me on teh roads and parking. there are many times i feel like i could have met with bad accidents. i am learning more about multitasking as i drive. not that i'm talking, but i mean looking around at my surroundings and anticipating mistakes. i think it was good to get a car to gain these experiences because if i plan to stay in the US i need to drive. plus it's so much more convenient and it's nice to get off campus once in a while. i'm really grateful to it. i had a good time with STEP people yesterday too, just eating and buying groceries.
i think what i'm really happy about is that I see God is answering my prayer requests. about Christian community mainly. i was unsure about the church, but He confirmed today for me that i'm in a good place. that I do not need to worry so much about planning ahead and going to what. i do want to grow more and more in Him. i am glad for weekends.
this pastor is actually a little similar to my AACCC one, except maybe the Bible passages are a bit shorter. however, we're reading through Galatians which i love and the pastor gave some background to what was going on and that little piece of information helped me understand it a ton better, even though the wording was pretty self explanatory, but not knowing the context and hearing it in laymen's terms is really different. he moved quickly to the application and God spoke to me through it. the passage was about falling away. very apt since this is something i've been thinking about for a while. and in the midst of this sermon, i heard God's voice telling me to calm down. i'd been so hyped up about not having a Christian community here like back in Ann Arbor, and being scared of falling away from Him because i lacked that accountability. and today, God told me to leave it up to Him. i think because i'm so used to DOING, that sometimes i really forget to just enjoy His presence. and since the way I came to Christ is not as conventional as others, sometimes i feel like i have not experienced this joy in full. but that's a whole other story to write about. anyways, i was once again convicted of my attitude that i always need to be doing/serving Him when in reality, God's grace is sufficient for me. this is something I've been really experiencing in these two weeks. God will cover my sins up. and He does not want to let me go. so I need to stop being so afraid, because it's hindering me from fulfilling greater purposes, when i keep hesitating or thinking/wasting time. my salvation cannot be earned, because it only comes from Jesus. and I have already accepted it. so maybe this year, God is asking me to sit back and watch Him. ironically, without my close knit community, i'm still feeling tied together with God and i've been remembering to do my devos which is not always the case when i'm in community. so God is good. all the time.
i was reminded of one thing today tho. i want to commit my life everyday to Christ. like the pastor said, it's not a one time commitment and i think in order to orient my mind to the correct thinking, i want to surrender myself to Him everyday. things are not in my control and i may not be always pleased with it. i may even be confused. but I want to live like Christ and be a light to the world.
so i'm happy because God spoke to my direct fears today and dispelled them. i need to be careful now that i don't go too lax. but He's giving me strength. i'm starting to recognize the roads a bit and that's such a praise to God too considering my limited driving skills. He's really protected me on teh roads and parking. there are many times i feel like i could have met with bad accidents. i am learning more about multitasking as i drive. not that i'm talking, but i mean looking around at my surroundings and anticipating mistakes. i think it was good to get a car to gain these experiences because if i plan to stay in the US i need to drive. plus it's so much more convenient and it's nice to get off campus once in a while. i'm really grateful to it. i had a good time with STEP people yesterday too, just eating and buying groceries.
i think what i'm really happy about is that I see God is answering my prayer requests. about Christian community mainly. i was unsure about the church, but He confirmed today for me that i'm in a good place. that I do not need to worry so much about planning ahead and going to what. i do want to grow more and more in Him. i am glad for weekends.
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